Ugh day not going so well :/ fought with my hair it kinda won. Left the house, dropped my damn phone didn’t realize it until I was like 3 stops away, walked back luckily it was still there where it fell out my vest pocket. Went home changed my shoes took my vest off. Then I walked to.the bus stop, and my neighbor gave me a ride to the el. Oooh did I mention I’m late for class and still gotta get my transpass and after class gotta go up germantown to get my stuff. Today is too much already. Luckily I don’t gotta work.
The sun ain’t even all the way up yet and I’m out here on my way to work feeling less than stellar this crisp sunday morning. Ain’t even put no food in my belly or lotion on my hands. Top of the morning to y’all.
This sucks and it hurts and after.everything I’ve been through this week is finally bubbling over and Im cleaning the bathroom trying so hard not to Fuckin cry while listening to Sam Smith’s Not in that Way. This really fuckin sucks. See its so easy to cover up your true feelings with a smile and saying that you don’t care anymore and turning off your feelings, but eventually your humanity comes through and.cracks that hard shell you’ve built up and everything comes bubbling out and you realize that this might be the last time you actually talk to each other again.
i dont go to clubs, i dont go to crazy events…id rather stay home and watch netflix. and if i go out, i just wanna do simple shit like walk downtown or go to target just for the hell of it. sure, i do the normal stuff like go bowling or go out to eat or go see a movie. and turn ups are cool when its only a handful of ppl around and only when its ppl i know…new folks fuck up the vibe.
im very chill. very very chill. no time for craziness, no time for nonsense.